Confessions
As the title suggests, it has been a week of confessions. Confessions to myself, to my friends, and to my family. I had to finally admit to myself this past week that I was homesick. I missed Eight Point Lake, I missed summer at home, I missed 4th of July weekend, and I really missed all my friends and family. Not that I still don't, but I have sense gotten better. It was funny because I was pretty sad last week with homesickness, but then I was looking at my planner and realized how little time I have left here in Spain, especially Alicante, and my family here and became sad all over again ha! The time really has flown by and I am going to miss my family here a lot. I feel like I am really getting comfortable here and now I am leaving.
Another one of my confessions was confessing my flaws to my friends here. This was also a confession to myself. I have talked to a few people about this, but I think that God has really been making me aware of my own sin which sucks, but it also makes me really aware of my need for Grace, which is beautiful. I didn't realize that pride was as big of a struggle as it is for me, and I have been catching myself using my words in ways that do not honor God. I am slightly frustrated by it because it has been something I have been really focused on over the past year, and I feel like I am losing ground. That's why I need Grace!!! It is amazing because I have been listening to a lot of the LT sermons as well as sermons from other churches, and no matter how many times I hear the Gospel, I am brought to my knees in humility every time when I hear how much Christ loves me and sacrificed for me so that I might have a full life through Him. It makes me want to do nothing more than live a life that glorifies Him, which is why I get frustrated when I fall. GRACE!
Other than these marvelous reminders, I bought a flight to Barcelona this week! My friend Lauren has an aunt who has an apartment there so we will be able to stay for free, and ironically one of my friends from high school will be there the same weekend! This weekend, Saturday and Sunday, we will be heading to Valencia which is the largest city in the region of Spain. It is home to many unique cites including Europe's largest aquarium, a religious museum, and a famous Cathedral to name a few. I am really excited because I have heard nothing but good things about it. I also started teaching English to these two girls this week. It is super easy, we just sit and talk for an hour and a half and I get paid! It is nice to do things on my own and meet people that are native Spaniards. I am also getting antsy for dad to get here. Daily I think about all the things I want to show him and Uncle Mike and what we are going to do. I am just excited to be able to share life with them. I have also been really intentional about spending time with my family here since I am hyper-sensitive to how little time I have left with them. I try to hang out with Elana, the younger sister, as much as possible.
Alright, I apologize for the choppiness of this post, I wrote it in pieces, but I have to do my homework and get to bed so until next week (probably).
Standing in awe of how desperately I starve for Grace,
Sigourney
Another one of my confessions was confessing my flaws to my friends here. This was also a confession to myself. I have talked to a few people about this, but I think that God has really been making me aware of my own sin which sucks, but it also makes me really aware of my need for Grace, which is beautiful. I didn't realize that pride was as big of a struggle as it is for me, and I have been catching myself using my words in ways that do not honor God. I am slightly frustrated by it because it has been something I have been really focused on over the past year, and I feel like I am losing ground. That's why I need Grace!!! It is amazing because I have been listening to a lot of the LT sermons as well as sermons from other churches, and no matter how many times I hear the Gospel, I am brought to my knees in humility every time when I hear how much Christ loves me and sacrificed for me so that I might have a full life through Him. It makes me want to do nothing more than live a life that glorifies Him, which is why I get frustrated when I fall. GRACE!
Other than these marvelous reminders, I bought a flight to Barcelona this week! My friend Lauren has an aunt who has an apartment there so we will be able to stay for free, and ironically one of my friends from high school will be there the same weekend! This weekend, Saturday and Sunday, we will be heading to Valencia which is the largest city in the region of Spain. It is home to many unique cites including Europe's largest aquarium, a religious museum, and a famous Cathedral to name a few. I am really excited because I have heard nothing but good things about it. I also started teaching English to these two girls this week. It is super easy, we just sit and talk for an hour and a half and I get paid! It is nice to do things on my own and meet people that are native Spaniards. I am also getting antsy for dad to get here. Daily I think about all the things I want to show him and Uncle Mike and what we are going to do. I am just excited to be able to share life with them. I have also been really intentional about spending time with my family here since I am hyper-sensitive to how little time I have left with them. I try to hang out with Elana, the younger sister, as much as possible.
Alright, I apologize for the choppiness of this post, I wrote it in pieces, but I have to do my homework and get to bed so until next week (probably).
Standing in awe of how desperately I starve for Grace,
Sigourney
Sig!! This post is wonderful!! I caught it on my news feed and I thought I'd check in and see what your life is up to!! God's grace is awesome isn't it??? I have been walking around trying to have an open heart and open ear to what He wants to teach me. In Deut 1:30 we can read that GOD GOES BEFORE US and in Deut 31:6 HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US NOR FORSAKE US. No matter where you are at in life Sig, He goes before you and is fighting the battles before you get there. He will not leave you and His grace is so sweet and sufficient!! And I have to mention this verse because how cool is it that we have a God who is full of grace, who loves us unconditionally and takes great delight in us! Us who are sinners and are far from perfect, or we feel so, but we are in His eyes!
ReplyDeleteZephaniah 3:17
Amplified Bible (AMP)
17 The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior [Who saves]! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest [in silent satisfaction] and in His love He will be silent and make no mention [of past sins, or even recall them]; He will exalt over you with singing!
So sweet!! Thank you for sharing a little piece of your testimony Sig, excited for what is happening in your life right now. Miss the Doozie days :)
Love,
Ashlee