Standing in Awe

Any of you reading that have attended New Life's leadership training program: not THAT last 10%.  I am talking about the last 10% of my support raising that I have left.  It seems crazy that I could be finished really soon and back doing field ministry.  It also seems AMAZING!!  I am so excited to get back to doing the ministry God called me to and that made me want to go through this whole support raising process in the first place.  I go back and forth often feeling really encouraged by the fact that I am so close to finishing, but also fearing that it will drag out and having no idea where it is going to come from.  If you could pray that I can have courage and faith to call the people that are hard to call and that I can trust God to provide this last 10% in his perfect timing that would be awesome. The last few weeks have been a weird mixture of fear, excitement, joy, doubt, mourning and rejoicing.  One of the things I said to a friend recently...

Wow.  What a week it has been.  God has given me so many unforeseen blessings it is unreal.  As you know I have been support raising to be on staff full-time at New Life Church for over a year now.  It has been some of the best but also some of the hardest time of my life.  Each day I have been learning about myself, about God, and choosing to trust that he does indeed have what is best for me in mind in spite of what I am feeling or my reality seems to be telling me.  In the past couple weeks I have been thinking through numbers and talking with a few trusted friends and mentors and we all came to the realization that I can lower my support goal somewhat significantly.  This may not seem like good news, but it is.  It means that I am a lot closer to reaching my goal (assuming GCM approves my new goal).  As I reflect on how I was feeling before this revelation I think I was feeling really hopeless in the process and like there was no end in ...